Work, life and things in between – Day 75 – Going for a ride!
I was awake most of the night. My brain wants to know what I will do when I grow up. It wants to know now! Brains are like dogs. They always want to go for a ride.
Actually they remind me of newborns: quiet most of the day but running amok after midnight. The difference is that babies grow up and eventually learn to line up with the rest of the world (mostly!) Not sure when brains learn to do that.
So I was upset. That was good. Upset is a good source of energy. I was not sad, not depressed; I was just tired of that behavior. So I sat down at my computer, pulled my balance sheet and reviewed scenarios 1, 2, 3, 4 etc…until I had considered all options (noticed I said reviewed?? That was not the first time my brain and I went through this…). The conclusion remained the same. I have time before needing to go back to work. In fact, if I wanted to, I could take years before going back to work or maybe even not go back at all. So, enough already.
Some of these options of course require some tough decisions, mostly around where I live and what lifestyle I want for myself. Therein lies the challenge. It is all about choices and since I am known to want to have it all, it is taking me time to decide!
That whole exercise took the better part of my morning. That was the time initially intended for writing. See? This is how a twisted brain works; somewhat like an addiction. The behavior it draws you towards, is not the one you should engage in.
So, back off neurotic brain and let me do this my own way!
Just to prove it wrong, I summarized my options, posted them on my board, turned off my computer and actually decided to reupholster my dining room chairs. Finally. That project had been on my list since the beginning of my sabbatical.
The day had finally come!
And as if that was not enough, at 3 pm, I stopped everything I was doing and headed out to Yoga class.
Eat your heart out old brain! To day 76.